I’m so tired of not being happy in relationships. I’m so good at loving people and I love loving. I love harder than anyone I know. And I love in a good way. I’ll fight for you if I need to. I’ll fight by your side against your enemies. Most of all, I’ll fight with you when you’re selling yourself short or giving up. I’ll stand by you whenever you’re feeling down or scared. I’ll hold your hand for no real reason if not to just remind you that I’m still there. I’ll care about and for you everyday for my entire life.
So if this sounds good to you, would you tell me why I can’t find anyone else who can keep these promises? Don’t get me wrong, I can call up about 5 people right now who can say these things and they think they mean it but they don’t. They don’t know how to actively plan on loving people every day. They don’t know how to throw their entire heart into something and not fuck it up for themselves. They damage that thin pull on your heart that makes you smile every time you see someone or hear their name. They not only damage it beyond repair but then replace it with a dark shadow of pain and sadness. Because the love is still there, the caring is still there, but it’s overwhelmed by fear, mistrust, and disappointment. The want to be there is alive but the confidence in that everything will be okay and the outcome of staying will be worth it is dead.
